I have yet again been inconsistent with my entries. I had
planned on doing one every weekend at least, but have failed to stick to my own
schedule.
Truth be told, the reason I haven’t written is because I’ve
been slightly elevated lately. I’m not sure that it’s actually been as bad as a
hypomanic episode, but I’ve been elevated nonetheless. I haven’t slept as well,
I’m constantly working on projects, and worse- thinking about more projects.
Here is project #2: Christmas Advent Calendars (yes- I’m
working on Christmas already- I’m even watching Christmas movies already… don’t
“bah-humbug” me). They are still not completely done, but are almost there.
I’ve made 4 of this kind for my siblings and I.
I’ve also made 2 of a different kind- they don’t have the
binding on yet, so just imagine it done; one is for our ward’s service auction
that we do every year, and the other is for a white elephant gift. Call me
crazy, but I’ve had a lot of fun working on these.
Other planned projects include (in no particular order)(and most of them found on Pinterest):
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A way to organize my jewelry in my closet
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Finding something pretty to organize my make up
in
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Finding somewhere to organize my nail polish
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Finding and hanging a full length mirror in my
bathroom
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A fall table runner
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Different seasonal centerpieces for my dining
room table
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Creating seasonal decorations for our porch
There are a few that are more long term- like putting in a
copper backsplash (how delish is that?)- but I’m not including those in this
list. And I’m sure there are other short term projects that I’ve imagined and
obsessed about for a few hours that I’m just not thinking of right now… I keep
telling myself to write these projects down. The problem is that even if I
write it down, I forget where I put the notepad- so that doesn’t do me any good
Maybe if I use this as my notepad- I’ll actually remember to look back.
Even with all these projects being so exciting to me, I have
to make sure I just take it one project at a time. For me, these projects can act
as triggers and make me spiral out of control into a hypomanic, or even manic
episode. As good as that feels for me, my family suffers for it. Also, I’m told
that the higher I let myself get without management, the lower my depression
will be. I keep myself from serious depression if I keep my elevations in
check.
Home decorating projects and craft projects are triggers for me too. I had to unsubscribe from the 20 or so decorating blogs I used to read because they really amped me up. (Never been manic but hypo for me isn't fun, it's feeling hurried and irritable and a very frustrating amount of energy that I can't seem to get rid of) So you can imagine how fun it is for my hubby when I tell him it's inperative that we paint the bathroom! Today! And buy new towels! All the while being extremely bitchy about it :/ I do hope you will continue writing. I identify with so many of your posts. Thanks for sharing!
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